UGH! UGH! UGH! That's all I can say!!

When it rains at our house it seriously does POUR!!

So, we took all the kids to the Doctor yesterday. Ashlyn and Ammon had been fighting a fever & horrible cough for a couple days, then Alley started in and then the baby. Ashlyn and the baby started puking. Yuck! Everybody was not good and Adler was for sure not good, hardly eating and not holding much down and hardly able to breath! So I knew we needed to head to the Doctor.

The run down from the Doctor was... all four kids have ear infections, Ammon is also very wheezy and needed breathing treatments. Adler has RSV along with his ear infections.

This Stinks!! Really!!

We had to take Adler to the Hospital to get suctioned out. They basically tie his arms down with blankets and I have to hold his head still and they stick long tubes in his nose and try to get some of the junk out. I hate it! And I have to drive to St. George everyday for at least 7 days to get it done. They said if I could do it ever 4 hours, that would be best or even if I could do morning and night. I wish I could because he really needs it! But, driving to St. George everyday 2 times or more a day???!!! We really can't afford it! I hope little Adler will be okay with the once a day.

I'm not sure I can handle this! I get really nervous for the nighttime especially, that's when the fevers come out the worst and Adler just doesn't sleep because he can't breath and I don't sleep either.

I walked away with 2 bags full at the pharmacy and the lady was like "Good Luck." {haha, yes we need all the luck we can get.} I wish I had 3 other clones of me right now and maybe one extra just in case! Let's hope this goes away real fast and that we can stay healthy for the rest of the year! =) Ha, I'll probably be the next one sick! =/ if I survive this week! =)

~12 WEEKS!~

Wow! I had to double check as I was counting the weeks...I can't believe our little guy is 3 months already! He is growing so fast! He started so little..and with little chicken legs...haha, and now he seems about right because he is soooo chunky. That's what we are use to! He now weighs 12 lbs 5 oz and is 22 3/4 inches long. That is the 50 % for both height and weight.

I just love this stage, he is smiling all the time and always trying to talk to us. He tries to laugh but it's not quite a giggle yet. I love baby talk, it's just sooo cute! Adler is such an easy going baby most of the time. Pretty mellow, unless he is not feeling good or poppy or hungry. He get's scared easily if someone surprises him and cries in horrow....so sad! =( I sure wish he would start sleeping through the night....haha. But, other than that he is a very good baby! He is breastfeeding and will take a bottle once in a while but NOT formula. He will cry and cry and never drink formula. Which is okay with me, but sometimes not convenient. I can't pump and pump every second, plus there is not much extra! We'll just have to try and figure that part out so mom can have a break once in a while! =) We love him so much and he just adds what is needed to our little family. His brother and Sisters love him so much. Ashlyn is mostly the little mama with him. She is so cute with him. But, they all love to hold him and talk to him every chance they get! We love you Adler!

The BEST Grandma

Grandma passed away at 8:15 am (on my clock) on December 31, 2009 (New Years Eve morning) at 93 years old. After cracking her pelvis in August, Grandma had been on Hospice care and 24/7 family care because she was bed ridden at Home. She wanted to go so badly and be with Grandpa and her other family again. She would always ask.. "Why am I still here?" It was so sad to see her this way. She would contstantly have rags from Grandpa's garments in her hand or by her shoulder.

I was glad I had the opportunity to take a shift with Grandma that saturday before. I hadn't been able to take shifts much because of having small children and a new baby, and teaching music. But, I took Baby Adler with me and Grandma was sleeping most of the time by this time. I sat by her bedside and she opened her eyes a few times. I always asked if she needed anything, she said no. One time she opened her eyes and I gave her a little drink of water from a medicine syringe. She opened her eyes another time and said "I wish somebody would stay in here with me." I said "I'll be right here Grandma sitting next to you in the Rocking Chair, let me know if you need anything." And she went back to sleep. I was writing in her notebook that everything had been recorded in about her care and I wrote this poem while sitting there next to her:

***

Grandma we love you & I think you are the best!

I'll remember how you once were, not only like this, just at rest.

I'll remember how you love us & you want us all to be well,

always caring & worrying- never just for yourself.

I love your sense of humor & your funny charm.

You always telling people what you think & not giving a darn. =)

We know your strong testimony and we will remember, what's important

& what we should do to be a Family Forever!

We will be with you again someday Grandma,

there's nothing for you to now worry about.

It's okay to be with Grandpa now,

He's waiting with open arms and a big welcome shout!

We know that's where you want to be so we will just have to accept.

We know you will be in heaven and happy again, in our hearts you will always be kept!

***

Her voice was only a whisper by this time and as I kissed her head and said "I love You" she would always mouth the words back. It was by the next Tuesday that she was then pretty much comotose & we knew her time was closer than ever. She kept hanging on to something though, until the very end. That Tuesday & Wednesday I couldn't make myself leave. I wanted to be there every second although it was very hard to see her this way. She would only take a breath about every 30 to 40 seconds, sometimes longer and as we watched her it's like you held your breath just waiting fo the next one and then you'd take a deep breath too in relief. You could see the life being sucked out of her and it was sooo very hard. It's almost like we were all just praying that she could go and not be like this anymore and be where she wanted to be. How sad for us & how happy for her it would be. I stayed there every second I could and when I had to go home I wish I had stayed. I would go crazy until I could go back to her home and be there with everybody and her. I stayed all night long on Wednesday night, not getting much sleep...we watched her and did anything we could for her. She was in a coma, but we thought she could hear us because sometimes how she would move. You could feel the spirit in the room, you could feel how close to the veil she was, you could not deny what we know is true, that we will be together again someday!! I had to leave at 5 am so I could be with the kids when Artie had to leave for work. I watched Grandma take a couple breaths before I left and I knew it would be the last time I saw her breathing. When I got home I crashed for a while until the kids woke up. It was New Years Eve Morning. I called over to Grandma's to see how it was going and as I talked to my mom on the phone in tears at 8:15 am she said that Grandma was at that very moment taking her last breath. I asked "are you sure," because you have to wait at least a minute because she may take another breath. But, she knew that was it. She said, "yes, she's gone." I wish I was there and I knew it was coming, but I still couldn't believe it. I can't imagine Grandma not being there next door to my mom and dad anymore. She & Grandpa had been there all my life and to not have him there anymore and now her is going to be so different. She was such an awesome lady and so funny and just fun to be with. Such an example always and always standing up for right. Treating each and every one of us like WE were the favorite grandchid and always wanting to know what's going on in our life and making sure we are okay. She was caring, fiesty, funny, sporty, the best cook, the best gardner, the best everything, THE BEST GRANDMA! She makes me want to be a better person, a better wife & mother, sister and daughter and friend. I will miss you so much Grandma, and I'm glad my kids got to know you even for the short time that they did! Grandma & I (2001)I love this picture of Grandma on the far rightAlley & Grandma (2003)Ashlyn & Grandma (2005)Ammon & Grandma (92 b-day party Sept 2008) 4th of July 2008, Ammon kept getting mad when I tried to take him off Grandma's lap.Adler & Grandma (Oct 2009)

The Happy Young couple Together Again!

He was also the Best Grandpa! Grandpa passed away in 1999, 10 years ago

This Christmas...

These are a few random pictures of Christmas this year........

Aunt Erica & Adler at the Laub Family Christmas Party

Ashlyn & her cute apron from Aunt DiannAmmon's Tool SetChunky Boy Adler....forgot the picture of his Bum that says..."Santa's Helper" (So Cute)Our Favortie Tradition...Our Elf Nod

The kids still loved to wake up to find where Nod would find to hide each morning after coming back from the North Pole to tell Santa Clause how they were doing each day.

Ammon had a fever Christmas Eve and Christmas Day....Every year one of our kids is always sick on Christmas! =( Putting out the reindeer food on Christmas EveTime to put out Santa's Special Key

We love to go to breakfast to Grandma & Grandpa Laub's on Christmas morning and the kids love to play with all the cousins and see what they got for Christmas.

Uncle Walter & Adler after a Yummy Breakfast!Ammon was a fun age this year. He called every Christmas lights and decoration "Christmas." Whenever we passed a house with lights he said "Look, Christmas." When we asked him what Santa was going to bring him he said, "horse turds." haha

The main presents we got this year were:

Artie- Play station 3

Angela- Wii Fit Plus

Alley- DS

Ashlyn- DS

Ammon-Handy Manny 4-wheeler

Adler-a few clothes

(Adler loved watching us open presents Christmas morning, he smiled so much and gooed the whole time)

So, that's just a quick run down of our Christmas. So sad I didn't take any pictures Christmas Morning. I was videoing the whole time and didn't take any pics! =( Then after presents we were off to Grandma's and Grandpa's houses and gone most of the day! But, we had a fun time...it came and went way to fast! Can't wait for next year!